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JADED
Friday, February 27, 2009
5:07 PM
I`m sick of waiting for changes to exist.

I think i`ve done my part. If she can`t deal with what I want, she can set off. I never intended this to happen. I never even plan of taking revenge. Bomalabs. Why do I always have to take the blame for everything? Come on, i`m the one who`s offended here. It`s crystal clear that she has to be the one who should be chasing me and be sorry and forlorn. But what`s happening now…?

Alam niya kasi na may babalikan pa siya kaya kampante na siya.

Goddamnit. I`m so jaded!




Noimi laslas, stupid forever
Thursday, February 26, 2009
4:57 PM
3 years ago ata yan.. yang title na yan sakin. And now, bumalik nanaman.
Di ko na nga siguro kaya. kahit sabihin ko na kaya ko, bumabagsak talaga ko. I have always believed that I`m a strong person. Ngayon ko lang narealize na hindi pala talaga.

What I`m going through now eh masasabi kong isa sa pinakamasakit at pinakamahirap. Hindi ko na ata kakayanin pa. pagod na pagod na ko. Parang wala naman kasing magandang kapalit lagi. Laging ako kawawa, laging ako yung naiiwan bandang huli.

Nung una yung problem ko about Kat. Akala ko kaya ko eh. Lahat kaya ko naman sana tanggapin..kaso, parang bumabagsak ako lagi. Minsan nasaktan na ko and sa kanya ko ulit binigay lahat ng tiwalang magiging masaya ulit kapag nagmahal ako. takot na takot ako dati eh, kasi alam ko mauulit lang ulit... masasaktan lang ako, iiwan...magisa na lang ako. So ganun nga nangyari. Iniwan, sinaktan. Tapang ko pa nga eh. Sabi ko pa "Nakaya ko nga dati eh. Kaya ko din ngayon." tangina, di pala. Mas masakit pala. Alam ko naman, topakin ako, masungit, moody..pero alam ko naman naging mabuti akong gf. Lahat lahat kinaya kong tanggapin, pero bandang huli, talo pa rin eh.

Tapos ngayon... ako na nga namomoblema, ako na nga nagmukhang tanga at ginago, ako pa ulit napaparusahan. :'( Hindi ko din maintindihan kung bakit. pagkaka alam ko, as a person, okay naman ako. Oo, tarantado ko, pero hindi naman ako masama eh. Bakit ayaw sakin ng papa ko? Bakit ayaw na nya samin? bakit di ko na daw siya pwede makita? bakit ngayon pa? bakit laging ako? Bakit ganun?

Tinaggap ko lahat lahat simula umpisa. Ni hindi ko nga pinili na mapunta sa ganitong sitwasyon eh. Kung pwede lang di ba, sana pinili ko na lang na pamilya, yung masaya, yung maayos...yung kami lang. Kaso hindi eh. Pangatlo na nga kami, anak ako sa labas, di pa kami tanggap. tapos ngayon..di ko na pwede makita si papa. Sobrang sakit kasi, mahal na mahal ko papa ko. Alam ko hindi ko yun pinapahalata sa kanya..pero mahal ko siya. At lalong mahal na mahal siya ng mama ko. :'( Sa 2-3 hours niyang pagpunta dito every monday at thursday, okay na ko. Sobrang saya ko na, na kahit papano, nakikita ko siya.. nakakasama. :'( tapos ngayon, pati yung konting time na yun, di na pwede?? Bakit ganun? ANAK DIN NAMAN NIYA KO AH. PAMILYA NIYA DIN NAMAN KAMI. Hindi ko naman to ginusto, na ganito ang maging sitwasyon ko.. bakit kelangan ako magsuffer? Hindi ko kaya. :(

Sabi ko naman, agrabyaduhin na lahat, wag lang si mama. Siya lang kasi kakampi ko eh. Siya lang kasama ko. Kaming dalawa na lang. Di ko kaya na makita siyang ganito.. iyak ng iyak, laging tulala. ='( Sobra kong nasasaktan. Sana kahit para kay mama na lang, wag na para sakin... sana maging okay ang lahat. KAHIT PARA LANG SA MAMA KO. Gagawin ko lahat. :'(

Hindi naman pera lang gusto namin eh. Kung pera lang, kaya ko naman. magtatrabaho ko. Magsisipag ako.Kung kailangan huminto ako, sige. Para lang sa mama ko. Para lang wag lumayo si papa. kakayanin ko na lang.

Mahal na mahal ko mama ko...di ko kayang ganyan siya.. kasi pag ganyan siya, tumitiklop ako. :'( Ayokong sumuko para kay mama..



nakakalungkot lang na nangyari lahat to ngayon. Kung kelan wala akong makausap... wala akong mayakap. Walang makasama.

Sobrang sama ko ba para maexperience to lahat??? ANG HIRAP HIRAP.

:'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

:]
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
7:05 AM
Well, tonight was a fun night.
I was really sad this morning and I needed a drink.... and there I have it. I`m lucky to have my friends with me when times get rough. :]

See, this morning, BV ako with the guys dahil hindi kami natuloy yesterday. It was JP`s birthday and he invited us to go. Kaso, when we were on our way na, Bonggo called telling us na wag na kami tumuloy dahil lasing na mga tao and nagkakakagaguhan na. Eggs everywhere. Basa lahat ng tao. BV BV BV. =[ Eh that night, gustong gusto ko uminom.. ayun nabitin lang ako.

Tapos naman this afternoon, I found out that my EX is here in Pinas. Gawwd, I was shocked sa mga offline messages niya saying she went to our street to look for me, tapos she went to my school and to my tambayan. tangina, naparanoid ako. As in literal, sobra yung takot ko. I don`t wanna see her. PSYCHO eh. So I told my friends.

tapos ang saya kasi super GM. I forgot all of my problems sa sobrang kulit nila. :] Tapos ayun nga, naginom kami. Kaya I`m happy na. :]

Hehehe. HUED.

o eto....
Suso sa gata... at HEARTACHE. :))

BV PARE. BOMALABS.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
7:18 AM
Sobra na kong nalulungkot. I don`t know why. Basta iba yung feeling ko ngayon.

BV sobraaaa.
Hindi natuloy inuman. galit ako kay Nath, JP, Roms at Bonggo!! :[

HMPT.

Bakit ba kasi ang labo ng mga tao?
Sasabihin mahal ka.. lalambingin ka..tapos one moment, wala nanaman. Ang labo. Ang labo labo. :[

Maybe....from..here?
Monday, February 23, 2009
4:09 PM
I`ll blog muna before going to school...

Okay, so I checked on my phone this morning (first thing I do when waking up), I received a text message from her.. sbout "GANTI" blah blah.

I was shocked. Nagising tuloy ako ng bonggang bongga.

I don`t know where she got the info. I checked on the profiles of my friends... di ko alam kung pano niya nakita. maybe...from..here? Haha. I did not realize na pwede niya pala tong makita. I mean, this blog. Alam niya nga pala toh. TOINK. But but but.... YUNG KAY KIM??????? HUWAAAAAT??

Explanation:

That kiss is nothing. Hindi yun french kiss. It`s just a kiss. It just so happen that we were caught by the camera. Actually, it was a favor I did for my FRIEND Rinah. PLAY PRETEND lang yun lahat. She just broke up with her girl last month, nad ngayon birthday niya, ang alam ng friends ng ex niya, may new girl na siya.. Suppossedly, si Xy yun, but she brought Jayron with her kaya di na pwede. Si TJ naman, di sumipot. So I was the last resort. Ganun lang ang kwento nun. Walang meaning. Walang kahit ano. OKAY? It`s just a kiss. When we were in HS, we used to do that all the time. And besides, si RINAH yun... BARKADA KO.

Eh yun kay Kim...ewan ko kung ano yun. Nalalabuan din ako sa ISSUE.

Yun lang. ligo na ko, I`m going to be laaaaaaateee! OH NO.

Let`s get it on, BITCH!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
9:31 PM
Just get this thing over and done. I`m getting to that part that I already FEEL that I can do it, that I can move on. But you... you fuckface, keeps stopping it! I mean, come on! Stop LYING! Let me move on!

"Wala na yung samin. As in wala na. pag sinabi kong wala wala na talaga"
"ikaw lang BABE, ikaw lang forever."
"Walang makakapalit sayo.."
"papatunayan kong mahal na mahal kita... ikaw pa rin. Walang makakapantay sayo."
"Ayoko mawala ka.. di ko kaya.."
"alam ko mali ako...sorry. ikaw pa din naman. Ikaw lang lagi."

PUTANGINA! e ano toh????



E di mag gaguhan na lang tayo. Ang labo mo. And now you want to see me.. to talk and get things done??? JUST LIKE THAT? SORRY then GANUN NA LANG YUN???

I want to get things straight, if you still want me back, then PROVE IT. If you you think wala na talaga.. then let me move on. And quit lying!!!!! FUCK!!!


Spell bitch
Saturday, February 21, 2009
7:52 PM
P-A-U-L-A

!

Trip lang toh ah.


OMG!!!!!! I can`t believe I just did thaaaaaaaaaaattt

A note for myself and to someone I really love
Monday, February 16, 2009
2:24 AM
It`s hard not to be sad especially now that I need someone who will stay with me so bad. I`ve been busy for the past few weeks, I know. I was just trying to make you (Kat) proud of my achievements. After all, I thought, everything will be worth the hardships coz I know at the end of my stressful day, I still have you around.

So yeah, I was wrong. I never thought it would end this way. I just want you to know that I tried everything to make you satisfied. I failed and I`m sorry. I learned a lot from you and I`ll forever cherish the memories that we had.

I am now ready to move forward and go on with my life...ALONE. I wish I could tell you everything that I`m feeling now. But I don`t want to make myself look desperate. I know that you know, anyway.


This is hard, but i`m sure i`ll surpass this. I have my friends and I know they love me. For my HS barkada, you have known me for like a decade, I know you`ll never leave. Thanks for everything. I know hindi ako makwento about what`s going on around me, but I know that you guys trust me, you guys know i can handle this. Nakaya ko na dati di ba? kakayanin ko ulit ngayon, kasama kayo. :) let`s drink and celebrate! I just finished working on my short film :) Haha.

I`ll find someone else. this is not the end of the world. Maybe, hindi pa ngayon, but soon I know I`ll find someone. Better, maybe. I`m not the ugliest person in the world and I know I`m ..err...kind. I`m sure someone would love to stay with me and make me whole again.

but I`m not ready for anything yet. I`ll enjoy my single life. I`ll focus on my academics and will look for a good company for my OJT. I will make myself busy and will take good care of myself. I`ll get myself ready for summer vacation. i`ll go diet. :P And I`ll go to church every sunday with my mom. :)

Bru, Lykie, Nazz and Tunik... You guys are awesome. Thank you for making me realize things... sabi nga ni sir Jojo..EUREKA! :) Thanks a lot for being there for me. I feel special around you guys. Thanks for comforting me, lalo na nung sa snax. I cried so hard, nakakahiya. :) Nazz, you are lucky you have Tam, kaya kahit anong busy natin, give him some of your time. Lykie, Bru, and tunik... SiNGLE tayo. :)) Hahaha. :P I know we`ll find someone else. Sa ganda natin?? hellerrr! :)) hahaha

I can surpass this, di ba? I know it`s hard pero kakayanin ko. I love her, but if it`s not meant to be, then it`s just not meant to be.