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Oh gaaaaad
Thursday, March 26, 2009
8:39 PM
I`m so fucking tired. I haven`t slept for days. Totoo.

And there`s still a lot of things to doooo!!!

I am no superhuman! I need REST for goodness' sake!!!

WEIRD
6:25 AM
You are WEIRD. You give me this WEIRD attitude and it makes me feel WEIRD. You`re WEIRDness makes me weak...and that`s WEIRD. Why do I allow this WEIRD feeling to swallow me? This is really freakin` WEIRD.

I love this WEIRDNESS. Haha. It`s cool to be WEIRD sometimes.

WEIRD, huh? WEIIRRDDD.

SWEET :)
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
6:26 AM
Yaaaaaaay. life in starbuucks, babyyy!! :))

Go away, BV!! Ayoko ma-BV maganda araw ko :))

okaaay, I love animation na tuloyy :) hahaha

Madali naman akong kausap eh
Sunday, March 22, 2009
12:46 PM
I was just being brutally honest... because really, it could happen. "What-ifs" happen.

Meron man o wala.... ganun pa din.







________________________________________________
BOSS is missing in action... again.

Hala
Saturday, March 21, 2009
11:56 PM
If you`ll post something in here, linawin mo na ikaw yun. para di naman nagugulat mga nakakabasa.

Hala ulit.
BV. Di na ata tuloy PAGUDPOD. Bomalabs mga tao. :(

Hala pa isa.
BV ka. Wag kang dadalaw ng lasing. Di ka kasi matino kausap.

I guess it's really over :( -kat
Thursday, March 19, 2009
7:33 PM

No One Else Comes Close - Joe




I Still Love You. Forever and Ever Babe :(

Okay I get it
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
7:41 AM
Gets na. Di na kailangan magexplain pa, BOSS.

WOW HANEP AH
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
9:02 AM
Kat, baka nakakalimutan mo? Hindi kita pinaghintay.. ako pinaghintay mo. Hindi ka nagbago. I`m so fed up! Why can`t you just accept na ikaw ang may kasalanan ng lahat!??! MERON MAN O WALA, I STILL DON`T WANT YOU BACK.

IBA??? Kapal mo naman magalit na may iba na ko. ANG TANONG, MAY IBA NA NGA BA? HINDI PA NGA EH...wag kang manguna, baka maudlot. :P

And please stop telling people na HININTAY MO KO AT PINAASA KITANG MAGIGING OKAY PA.. dahil ikaw ang gumagawa nun sakin. Nakalimutan mo na ata mga kagaguhan mo. O baka gusto mo i-remind ko pa ulit lahat lahat sayo? ANO KAT???

PWEDE BA, TIGILAN NA NATIN TO. Pag tapos na, tapos na. Ikaw ang tumapos, hindi ako. Kaya wag mong ipagkalat na as if ikaw ang kawawa!!!

DAHIL KAHIT KELAN HINDI KO MAPAPATAWAD LAHAT NG GINAWA MO SAKIN!!!!!
KAYA AYOKO NA!

Lahat ginawa ko para maging okay pa. Di ko na kaya magpakatanga sayo. AKALA KO RIN MAY CHANCE NA MAGBAGO KA. PERO WALA. DI KA NA MAGBABAGO. You`re Kat. gago ka talaga. That`s you and that`s all you`ll ever be.

MAGKALIMUTAN NA TAYO.

Sabi ko na nga ba eh. -Kat
Monday, March 16, 2009
6:32 PM
May iba kaya ganyan ka, kaya kayang kaya mo na. Akala ko magiging ok pa tayo, akala ko tutupadin mo mga pinag usapana natin! Kahit di tayo nag uusap or nagkikita umaasa pa ko na maging ok tayo tapos MAY IBA NA PALA. tsk tsk. MALI LAHAT NG AKALA KO SAYO. may pasabi sabi ka pang MATAGAL KA MAKAKA MOVE ON eh ngayon palang ginagawa mo na.
SABI KO NA NGA BA, Buti malinaw na LAHAT. Sguro nga time na din na MAG MOVE ON NA KO.

Kala ko iba ka, kala ko mahal mo talaga ko, puro akala, kala ko kahit ganto mahihintay mo ko gaya ng paghihintay na ginagawa ko sayo, mas pipiliin mo pang mag umpisa sa IBA kesa ituloy LAHAT ng PLANO natin at gawin mas ok relationship natin. AKALA ko lang pala lahat! SABI KO NA NGA BA EH. TANGINA. NAGHINTAY AKO at UMASA na pag binigyan kita ng time para sa sarili mo eh maayos lahat to. Ngayon di ko alam kung pano mag MOVE ON. BAHALA NA. I HOPE HAPPY KA NA SA IBA MO. Tanginang buhay to walang kwenta!

totoo ba to? -Kat
6:30 PM
totoo ba to?

I guess this is goodbye?...

So ayun nga...
And yes, I think I`m liking someone else.

-sabi ko na nga ba may IBA eh. kaya pala.

Isa pa nga.
1:09 AM
I just posted minutes ago, namiss ko magblog ata kaya eto nanaman ako. :P

I feel better now na at least nalabas ko na naffeel ko about Kat. I hope she`s happy now.

Anyway, tama na ang mga goodbyes... sa welcome part naman tayo.

I received a text message from Ms. B...
Congrats! Aira, External VP. Charmaine,secretary. Paula, PRO. Alexa, Sports manager. :)


I swear, this is really an unexpected victory. I never thought someone actually believes in my capabilities. but oh well, I won, siguro kasi..pinilit ko sila magvote sakin. Toink. :)) so yeah, welcome, new life... everything`s going better for me.

After all the problems and hardships, at least, nakakabawi na ang buhay. :)

Welcome, new love? Now that finally, meron nang closure, I don`t think i`m ready for a new love just yet... but I promise I`ll open my heart for those who are willing to take care of it. naks! :) kelangan ko maging masaya, meron man o wala. i have to be happy. I deserve to be happy. I got my friends, alam ko di naman ako malulungkot.

Welcome, Christian Life! I`m proud to say that i`m active in church again. :) I go to Victory every sunday na and i participate in it! I`m into small groups now and i`m lovin` it. There is really no one like our God. He gives me strength that`s why I carry on. :)

and....

Welcome, social life! I can now go ooutttt with friends now without chaperone!!!!! :) yeheeeeeey! :P

Haaaaaaaaaay. kaya ko to. Aja, Paula. Madami pang problema na dapat ayusin, pero kaya ko to. naguumpisa na maging okay ang lahat.. just keep on praying, and everything will be back to normal. :)

okay, that was a surprise...
12:50 AM
Now here it goes

Kung MAHAL lang paguusapan, ikaw pa din. Pero PAGOD na ko talaga. Maybe we really should move on with our lives. You will never change, you`ll just keep on hurting me over and over again. And yes, it`s sad to think that everything will be thrown away just because of this. Sa totoo lang, I accepted the part na na you cheated on me,you liked someone and all..what I can`t accept is yung ugali mong papaikutin mo lang ako lagi. You are so sure of what will happen kasi that`s why you never learn. Now, I`ve made up my mind, LET`S JUST STOP WHATEVER WE HAVE/HAD and MOVE FORWARD. There`s someone out there for you and I know there`s someone din out there for me. Alam naman nating dalawa ang totoo, wag na tayo magkunwari.

No, I don`t want to be friends with you. Okay na yung ganito. Wag magkita, wag magusap. Like nothing happened between us. Ganun naman ang ginagawa mo, sanay na ko...so let`s just do it that way so no one will get hurt din. If you need your things, just get it from mama.

Buti na lang hindi ko friends lahat ng friends mo. Well, never naman akong naging tied sa kanila. But i`ll miss them...Chisa, Anna, MQ...lahat sila. :) Paki sabi na lang sa kanila. And your dad, thank you paki sabi.

I guess this is goodbye?...

So ayun nga...
And yes, I think I`m liking someone else.

Thank you for everything and I`ll never forget you. Ingat ka. Basta, be happy. Alam ko naman happy ka.

Paki basa na lang. -kat
Sunday, March 15, 2009
1:37 PM
Gulat ka siguro at may bagong blog dito, sorry alam ko kasi pw nito diba? di mo pa napalitan kasi ayun. Monthsary dapat natin ngayon pero wala di naman na tayo. Sana happy ka sa buhay mo ngayon, lam ko naman kahit di mo sabihin lam ko naman na happy ka ngayon eh. Sorry sa lahat and gusto ko lang sabihin kahit tinitiis kita, miss na kita sobra. Ewan ko kasi feeling ko ayaw mo na talaga sakin kaya di rin ako nag paparamdam sayo and yoko maka storbo sa mga ginagawa mo. Ang dami ko gusto sabihin sayo pero ngayon wala na naman ako masabi eh wala basta nafifeel ko naman na ok ka na eh, na naka move on ka na siguro kaya kung san ka happy dun na din ako. Alam ko di ka na maniniwala sa sasabihin ko pero, sa totoo lang ikaw lang talaga gusto ko na maging LAST ko pero di na din yun siguro mangyayari kasi ayaw mo na talaga sakin. Nakakalungkot lang na lahat ng pinagsamahan natin matatapos lang ng ganito lahat ng plano, lahat. Kung ako lang masusunod gusto ko ikaw na para sakin alam mo mahal na mahal pa din kita pero wala na huli na siguro lahat para maging ok pa tayo. Sana maging ok pa nga talaga kahit na sabihin mong ang feeling ko or what umaasa pa din ako na TAYO talaga sa huli ewan ko ang weird nga eh pero ako nalang siguro may gusto mangyari yun. Ayun lang, ingat ka lagi tapos alagaan mo lagi sarili mo and mama mo, mamimis ko lahat lahat and lahat ng tao na naging malapit satin dalawa. Natatawa ko minsan kasi yung napag usapan natin dati na what if maghiwalay tayo ng matagal tapos magkikita din tayo pag christmas kasi nga ninang ako ni marlon and cyrus pero ayun nga wala lang. Basta kung di na talaga pwede maging tayo sana maging friends tayo pero kung ayaw mo ok lng din. Minsan natatawa na lang ako kasi parang feeling ko tayo pa din tapos nag away lang tayo kaya di tayo nag uusap and nagkikita tapos magbabati din tayo ganun. Ayoko na sa iba ikaw lang nakikita ko na kasama ko sa future ikaw lang, babe :( Pero mahirap na ibalik lahat sa dati at di na siguro mababalik pa ulit sa dati :( Ayun sana pag may iba ka na sana paalam mo sakin para mag start na ko mag move on talaga. Yun lang ok na ko. yun lang naman basihan ko para mag move on na talaga ko. Sorry kung naki-alam ako at dito ko naisip isulat ng mga gusto ko sabihin sayo eh wala lang mas ok dito mas nasabi ko mga bagay na gusto kong sabihin sayo. Dito ka nalang din magreply sa blog ko dito ko nalang babasahin. Sige matutulog na ko. Gudnyt!

Ughh
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
8:57 PM
Didn`t come to class today because I have a very terrible headache. :|

Anyway, yesterday was absolutely f-u-n.

G.A --- I ran for PRO for next school year`s Org officers.
--- Masscom people are just so fun to hang out with.

GATEWAY --- Kwentuhan sa kapehan. :))
--- talked about serious stuff. Haaaaay. thanks to lykie, gumaan na loob ko. :)
--- Basta masaya

PETA Theater --- LAUGHTRIP POTA!!!
--- Basta laughtrip! :D

9ball --- mmmkkaaay, I don`t really play billiards...'
--- I tried anyway and was able to shoot (?) 3 balls in a row. OH YEAAHH! :)
--- Camwhoring sessions
--- Saw ate Fhatz and friends :P

MUSIC MATCH --- Oh this was the most f-u-n part! :)
--- VIDEOKEEEEEEEEEE!!!
--- With my HS friends... Xy, Rinah and Chloe. :)
--- Yaaaaaay :D
--- Screwdriver babbbbyyy!!! :)


* Indeed, there`s a rainbow after the rain. :)



----- THE "UGH" PART -----------

Tuesday night, I hated the whole world. I was so down and there`s no one to talk to, so I text messaged my sister (Ate Janice). I can`t believe I could actually open up myself to my sister since we`re really not that close. I messaged her about how i felt when I found out what Papa did. eh sobrang galit ako, so I cursed a lot in my text messages saying how I hate papa for doing those. Ayun nga. Then just this morning, papa called and his voice was a little softer than usual. Sabi niya I should take good care of myself daw and he loves me so much and he misses his little princess. I can`t help but melt... I was so mad at him last tuesday and just this morning, it all faded away. I hate what he did, but I love him. Kaya pala siya tumawag, ate forwarded all my messages nung tuesday night and he read everything. Nahihiya tuloy ako. :( Kasi super mura yung text ko. :(

haaaaaaaaaay. I wish everything`s back to normal. I feel so alone.. :(

GAGONG GAGO!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
4:54 AM
Ang gago mo!!! Ikaw ang pinaka gagong taong nakilala ko!!!! Sana di mo na lang ako anak!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gago ka!!! GAGONG GAGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(

dkfgauisfgbaewgwer6378ry^%*&^E@iegq
3:51 AM
Tanginaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Gusto kong pumatay ng taoooooooooooooooooooo
gusto kong pumatay ng tatay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
;( ;( ;( ;(

MALAMAN KO LANG KUNG SINONG BABAE YUN PUTANGINA NIYA KAKALBUHIN KO SIYA!!!!!!!!!!!

DI KO NA KAYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

like Bru`s
12:20 AM

I saw what Nokia 7610 Supernova looks like na. :)) hahaha. It doesn`t have any difference with the one i`m using now which I borrowed from Bru. :) Sobrang parehas lang ng itsura hahaha. I`m so happy i`m having my VERY OWN PHONE now AND NOBODY`S GONNA TAKE IT FROM ME BECAUSE IT`S MINE MINE MINE! hahahahahahahahahaha :))


Haaaaaaaaaay. People come, people go. But if they must go, there`s no way of coming back.
I LOATHE YOU.

Songs for the moment
Monday, March 9, 2009
9:38 AM

OUCH


Ngayo'y aking inuunawang pilit
Mga pagkukulang kong iyong ginigiit
Sana'y malaman mo na tanging ikaw lamang
Ang aking iniintindi

Nakatanim pa sa'king ala-ala
Pangako mong mananatili ka
Kaya't paglisan mo'y naiwan ang pusong ito
Na ngayo'y bitin na bitin

Chorus:

'Di mo na mababawi iniwang sakit
Sa mga salitang binitiwan mo
Hindi ba't ikaw na rin ang nagpasya, nagtakda
At siyang unang umiwas
Bakit nga ba ako 'yong pinaasa?

Nasa aking guniguni malamig mong tinig
Kasabay ng hanging na dumarampi
Na para bang ika'y nariyan sa aking paligid
Tahimik na nagmamasid

*Repeat Chorus

Nahulog na'ng mga ulap, buwan at araw, mga bituwin
Ang ginugol na panaho'y na saan? (panaho'y na saan)
'Di ba't sayang naman? (Di ba't sayang naman)
Giliw yeah yeah yeah yeah

Ngunit di mo na mababawi iniwang sakit
Sa mga salitang binitiwan mo
Hindi ba't ikaw na rin ang nagpasya, nagtakda
At siyang unang umiwas
Bakit nga ba ako 'yong pinaasa?
Bakit nga ba ako 'yong pinaasa?

I`m better off alone anyway.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
2:41 PM
I knew it! SHE WILL NEVER EVER CHANGE! SAbi ko na nga ba... she just needs me now.

I`ve had enough. She can have her phone for all I care. My conscience is CLEAN. Wala akong iba and never ako nagkaroon ng IBA. If she can`t deal with my shit (texting other people) then, fuck off.

----I never really thought you could do something for me.

I admit, may mga nakakatext ako.. BUT JUST PLAIN FRIENDS. NEVER BEYOND THAT. But yeah, she`ll see. She thinks I`m flirting... then I`ll do it. I`m tired of waiting for changes to exist! Cycle lang lagi... she`ll be sweet today, the next day, we`ll fight over one thing and the next next day, we`re over and she`s enjoying her "being single" life... and the day after that, I`m going to cry, and then the day after that I`ll feel better without her and then the day after that. she`ll come running after me. OH GAAADD, I`M TIRED OF IT! KUNG WALA, EH DI WALA.

di ba???? Just stop if you can`t do anything good. If you can`t stick with your promises, just leave and don`t make it any harder for the both of us. I`m sick of giving you chances... chances should only come twice... not 46253412381827351 times!

I love her, everybody knows that I do... but really, I`m getting sick of this situation.

---------LOVE IS FUCKED UP...YEAH RIGHT! You fucked it all up! Damn!

** it`s 5:30ish am and i`m still up.I have to wake the bitch beside me here (xyza) by 6am. I`m really sleeeeepy. No more granmaaaaa :(

[ BOSSY :P ]

WEIRD FEELING
Saturday, March 7, 2009
7:18 PM
I still feel empty...

I feel like....

like...

I need something....

new.... something fresh?

I don`t know...

I feel locked up.

I feel....

REALLY WEIRD.

BONSAI
Thursday, March 5, 2009
6:54 PM
`Twas a successful play over-all. I`m happy I did not look stupid in front of the audience. Haha. :D Thank God, Ms. Viray gave me another chance. :D But as expected, nobody watched from my barkada. Lagi naman silang ganun. Pag lakwatsahan at inuman, ang daling kausap..pero pag mga ganyan..walang nagrereply. Well, for those who cared, Ces, Camz, Boo, rinah and Abi..thank you. I understand you can`t come because of work. But for the others... ewan ko.

Kaka and Sah.. and sa mga nagtry pumunta.. thank you. Haaay. Sayang talaga.

I`m glad mom watched my play with my tita and my cousins. Hehe. I wasn`t expecting it. And medyo happy na rin `coz papa called before and after my show to wish me luck and congratulate me. And Kat was there too, for the first time.

I`m glad that the audience responded sa mga comical parts of the play. it was actually unexpected din kasi I never thought I can do comedy. See, I can act...no comedy. And I`m glad my Tipol friends were there too! Masscomm boys! :) Wala nga lang mga 4th year and yung mga 2nd year BJ. kasi they have class. :( Haaaaaaay. Pangit talaga ng timeslot. :(

Basta over-all, OKAY lang yung feeling ko. AS IN ...'oh, okay'. ganun lang. Hindi masaya, di rin naman malungkot. hehe

:D
1:33 AM
Yayyy! Tapos na din play ko! Finally!!

Although, konti lang audience (well, mas gusto ko nga yun) successful naman ang play! And I`m glad bumenta naman kami :)

Galing ni gel and vince! Yayyyy!

Bukas si Lykie naman! Goodluck! :D

OMG
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
8:21 PM
I think I just saw my old phone used by some girl here in SNAX. OMG OMG OMG!!!

we`re sure...that`s my phone!!!

thanks, boi
8:01 PM
I have come to my realization that everything is possible if I just believe in it. If changes could be possible, then it would be.

I`ll give it another try. I`ll give her a chance to prove something. sabi nga ni Dags,

"At least nabigyan mo siya ng chance. Kung di pa rin magwowork, eh it`s not your fault anymore. Nabigay mo na yung part mo, siya na bahala kung pano niya ipprove."

But what if I get hurt again? I know i`m not ready yet. i`m still hurting. Sabi ko nga, I`m still in the process of healing. But I don`t want to waste din na in the end, siya na yung may ayaw.

"yan ang sinasabi ko sainyo. We made a mistake, and pinagsisisihan namin. Napapagod din kaming maghabol. kung di na namin mahal, di kami maghahabol."

Parang saktong sakto lang. well, i`m glad I have someone I could talk to about this. We can actually relate to each other. Kasi siya, sa ex niya, parang si kat siya. And ako, parang yung ex niya. hindi rin makapagdecide kasi di makalimot.

:( Haaaaaaaaaay. I`m sooooo confused. Pero salamat na din sa conversation na ganun, medyo na-enlighten ako. :)

Can I just go?
1:48 AM


Go somewhere else where no one could find me???

Everything`s falling...
1:35 AM
I`m all effed up. Everything`s falling out of place.

I hate it when people judge me... I know it can`t be avoided, but I just still can`t believe I`ll fuck up in something that I have LOVED doing... theater.

Suddenly, I`m not in the mood to act and be productive. I just quit my love for theater because I feel like being a big failure to the whole production. I`m not the type of person who quits easily... but having this kind of LIFE that i have right now, I think I`m losing my grip. Not just in theater but in my life in general.

I`m so confused. I feel like I`m not the same me anymore. Problems just keep on coming, and I can`t handle it anymore. I feel so empty. =(

I never thought I`d be this affected to the condition of my family right now. We`re all falling apart. Unloved, I am.

I don`t even know if I still love my own self.

I JUST WANNA QUIT EVERYTHING. =,( =,( =,(
I CAN`T DEAL WITH THIS SHIT ANYMORE.

STUPID ME
Sunday, March 1, 2009
6:45 AM
Alcohol everyday won`t make my problems disappear...
But it does make me happy. Well, somehow.

To stupidity and loneliness!! CHEERS! =(